Someone That Cannot Love.

The hardest part of understanding that you gave too much importance to someone that did not deserve it, is the reality check of that fact in your mind.

Mind me to explain this paragraph to you.

Imagine rooting for someone, defending them, praise them and let them know that they have the potential to be their very best, only for them to not even share with you something when you believed the whole time you both had some sort of friendship.

This happened to me this week and let me tell you: it was NOT fun. After spending the last few years being their biggest supporter, turns out I am not worthy of receiving the news from their own mouth.

And how do you manage that?

Well, good question.

In this specific case, I was already detaching myself from this person. Why? Somehow I was seeing this façade of a not-so-reliable person. But this latest was the last nail in the coffin, so to speak. So I grieved the person I believed I knew and above everything else, I made myself understand that the support, and love, and kindness I gave says a lot about myself and the type of person I am.

I don’t regret the support I gave him. That also taught me how to love and appreciate others. And perhaps in the future, they may reminisce back in time and think that, maybe, they themselves need to be like this to others.

Is it heartbreaking? It is. Is it revolting? Of course! But above all of this, I like to think that this has helped my own development as a person, and serves as a lesson as to how NOT to treat someone. And as a lesson for the future when you encounter someone with the same traits.

But on top of all: it is not your fault and don’t ever EVER feel guilty from caring about other people. We live in a ruthless world. We need more love and care.

Take care.

Claudia.